I have a long blog post written about the menstrual cycle but it’s not quite done yet so you’ll have to wait a little longer. Try to contain yourselves.

Body + Mind

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A couple of things worth noting today.

I had a amazing slash creepy experience during my meditation this morning. Like an out of body experience I imagine the yogis and monks talk about. I don’t know if I’ll be able to explain it in writing without someone feeling like I need to be committed but I’m going to do it anyway.

Snow day today so the kids didn’t have to get up early. Since my husband went out to plow the driveway around 5:00 am I thought I’d do a little meditation early. I found a sweet free app, Omvana, that I have been using for about a month. Try it, although, maybe after you read this, you might not want to.

So, I’m listening to a guided meditation while laying in my warm, cozy flannel sheets. I probably get about 2/3 of the way through when I slip in to a deep, deep state of mind. Next to me I feel the bed jiggle a little and hear what I think is Miles crawling in to bed next to me. Typical for a snow day.

I try to turn my head to look and my eyes won’t open. My body will NOT move. I was totally conscience but I couldn’t get my physical body to pay attention my mind. It was the strangest feeling ever.

When I finally willed myself to open my eyes, no one is in bed next to me. Woo woo, woo woo. So easily, I slip back in to this altered state and what seems like a minute later, which might have been 20 for all I know, I swear I hear Maddie kneeling on the floor right next to my bed. Again, I struggle to look over at the other side of the bed and what I think is her is just the blanket bunched up to look like a little head.

I turned off my phone and got my ass out of bed. It was crazy with a capital What the Fuck?

But, I kinda liked it. I hope I get back there tomorrow.

House + Home

With a snow day comes a full day of keeping my children, but more importantly myself, busy. Idle hands are the devil’s workshop after all.

So, I did something I have been meaning to do for more than a year. I pulled every single piece of clothing I own out of the closets and drawers. Everything that didn’t fit me I bagged up for donation, took pictures to sell or trashed them.

Nothing makes me feel like shit more than looking in to a closet full of clothes that don’t fit. And the reason I have kept them all these years (yes, years)? Today I realized I have no idea.

Of course I’ve been telling myself I’ll wear them when I lose weight, but really, what are the chances of that? By then I feel like I’m going to hate them. And those pieces are just going to remind me of how much I loathed them when I couldn’t fit in to them.

And, let’s be honest, mama’s gonna’ want some new duds.

So, out they went. Everything in my closet and drawers fit me. Like, fit me well. I could close my eyes, pick something and feel good in it.

And, if I ever get in an accident and someone has to bring clothes to the hospital, I won’t have to worry about it being my “Size 8 Life” clothing.

Debt + Finances

Cleaning out closets and under beds offers an opportunity to a make a little dough. However, I found myself hesitating to put it all on Facebook. I was just waiting for someone to text me like, “Looks like someone is Marie Kondo’ing it? LOL,” which would have annoyed me to no end.

But, then I thought, do I really care what someone thinks about me cleaning out my closet and under my bed? Would I really rather give up $100 toward a trip to Hawaii because someone is going to poke fun at my out-of-the-ordinary behavior?

Hell to the no I’m not.

Parenthood + Relationships

Man I didn’t want to go to yoga tonight but ironically, my kids helped me get out the door. We had a long day together, not a bad one, just a long one. I’m not used to having both of them home for five days in a row…sober.

Thank God my job/gym has a bitchin’ day care Maddie loves going to and a Dodgeball cherry on top for Miles. They ran off some energy, I sweat out my crabbiness and all is right in the world again.

I should have been saying this all along, but if you ever have comments or questions or something you think I should try please don’t hesitate to share it below in the comments!

I have received some really thoughtful, sweet feedback and amazing advice from you guys. It might help others reading too, so please don’t be shy.